I had my close calls in acting that could have propelled me into a different direction, but for one reason or another it was not meant to be. I've auditioned for staring roles on tv shows, speaking lines in film, numerous national spot commercials and even was up for a contract regular role on a soap opera. If any one of those would have came to pass my life right now may have been different.
Many times I look back at those auditions and situations and wondered "what if". But as time goes on I have come to realize that it simply wasn't my time for that so why have regrets. This goes for the rest of my life as well. There were times growing up when I wish I had done some things differently to avoid embarrassment or some sort, but what if I did. My life now could have been worse off or much different than it is now and for what?
For instance: back in high school I am reminded of a time when I was in class and my shirt was stolen right from under my desk. I mentioned this out loud and nobody fessed up about anything. The teacher did what he could but it was obvious this was going no where fast. Looking back on that I know how I could have handled it and most likely got my shirt back in the process, but at what expense. What if the person who took it got pissed off and decided to teach me a lesson one day? I've always been able to take care of myself, but if you don't see it coming or run into a person who just doesn't give a sh*t....well, you just never know.
So as much as I would have liked to have made different choices at times I realize that each one of them I made has led me up to who and where I am today.
